3 AM.

3 AM. And no sleeping seems to come around, eyes are wide open like if I just wake up, my body has that energy and is ready to do something that I have no idea what it is!! Maybe if I started to jump it will go with me and jump, no sleepy head here.. They are all ready but for what!! ... There is nothing to do, it's empty shallow world nothing to do, no one to call or talk to at that time,,

Trying to sleep one more time this time trying so hard.. nothing but thinking what I am going to do with my life,, what am I going to be? Where am I going to be? With whom am I going to be? Or I'll end up alone doing nothing but dying slowly watching everyone having their happy endings but me..

I think I want to be this… Ok, let's working on it… no no no I want to be that, Ok, no problem I'm still young I have so much time to start all over again, no worries, no no no no I don't think that is me, I can't be that it's not for me, I'll take some time off to think about what I really want!!!

Oooooh, that's exactly what I want!! I want to write over and over again and travel here and there, see so many people, so many countries, make new friends from all over the world, travel overseas discover new places, make some adventures…

Now I know what I need to do, I need to read lots of books, essays and everything that reaches to my hand,, I need to write more to practice writing, I need to find some magazine to publish my writings… Ooh Oh and I need some guidance, someone to take my hand to reach to my goal!! But where to find that someone!!

Maybe online I'll find what I'm looking for… maybe I'll try FaceBook, Yes, pages and groups,, yeah.. Like like like,, all set… now i'm ready to start reading and writing,, and that will be the first thing to do tomorrow morning…

And now it's still 3.25 AM. And still no sleep, Ok sleeping I demand you to come down from your whatever you hide in and make me sleep and feel tired and sleepy like all the normal people do…

Ok, you refuse then I'll close my eyes till they forget to open again until the next morning and I'll beat you, maybe it’s too late but the victory is for who did laugh at the end… right!!!